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cas ([personal profile] indecadence) wrote2013-05-24 08:48 pm
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cas@compass.net (1) (no subject) week 4|day 7
cas@compass.net (0) Re: Mission day|time
cas@compass.net (2) [text] week 6|day 2


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[personal profile] hardhearted 2014-04-08 12:46 am (UTC)(link)
[ yes, he wants honesty. sometimes it feels like asking for that and nothing else is too much for the people around him to deliver. he wonders if it's because of him, something he's done, to make them like this.

but now he's asking again, and he just needs cas to give him that. give him the honesty he asks for. ]


Who else would I see.

[ thing is, he does only see cas. it's always been cas, always him above the others. for the longest time, he hasn't had sam, no one but cas there to watch him ruin himself and those around him. and maybe they didn't share a relationship as they do now, back then, but that doesn't change the fact that cas has always been the only one worthy of anything in dean's eyes after sam had said yes. he just didn't have the sanity, the clarity, to say as much back then.

here he has both of them, here he knows sam is safer than he ever was back home. here, he can look at cas and taste, take, and breathe the words he's always wanted to into the seam of his friend's lips.

dean sinks into the heat of cas' mouth, pushes past those lips and presses himself inside. he's heard all that he needs to, wants nothing more than this right now, so he'll take, damn it. he'll take what's being offered him with that quiet, desperate please. ]


...C'mere.

[ rather than pushing him further into the wall, dean's tugging cas away from it, taking steps back towards their shared mattress.

he knows he could demand the same of cas -- see only me, no one else but me, not other-me, not anyone -- but he won't. can't. eve if he might want to.

for now, getting cas on that goddamn mattress is enough. ]
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[personal profile] hardhearted 2014-04-08 06:49 am (UTC)(link)
[ there's fire in those kisses, neediness and eagerness dean has been tasting only sparks of so far in their shared moments. but it's here now, just under the surface, and he thinks there's no turning back from this, that he wants all of it, wants more than what he's been given so far. his knees dig into the mattress, body presses against castiel's, leaving little to no space between them while his hands roam over the unfamiliar planes of his torso. his shirt covering cas' body leaves his fingers from touching skin, though his mouth is free to press harder against castiel's, pulling kisses from him with no room to breathe. the taste of his is intoxicating, just like this situation is building up to be.

it's only when cas presses their foreheads together that dean has a moment to breathe, to think once more.

not that he manages any words, and instead his hands finally slip lower, come to the hem of that shirt and then ride upwards, up, up, right until their disappear beneath, skimming over his chest, feeling everything they can with little shame.

dean hasn't really thought about this yet, of taking more. doing more. the hot, lick-bite kisses of their have been enough, have lit him up on the inside with such fire that he's been content, had gotten more from those exchanges than anything else before.

but now that they're here, now that it's only a matter of pushing cas into the mattress-- he wants, and it stirs fire in his veins, rushes it right down through his body. it's exactly what he does a moment later, as cas mumbles into the corner of his mouth, leaves visions of something dirty flashing across his mind with those quick words. he presses him down, crowds over him without letting any space come between them. ]


Yeah? Should probably find something better to think about.

[ he's only quiet for a breath longer, green watching carefully now. the words are a little self-deprecating, so he adds quietly; ]

Good thoughts, I hope.
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[personal profile] hardhearted 2014-04-08 10:33 pm (UTC)(link)
[ castiel's fingers on his face are gentle as they trace his skin, and dean-- it threatens to drown him, such a simple thing as those touches. right now all he can see is cas, all he can feel is his hands on him, and it's all he wants. right there and here, is everything he desires. no one's touched him like this, not in a long time and he feels himself suck in a breath at those words. his own are steady, but careful. ]

You have seen me fall apart.

[ but not in the way cas is suggesting.

dean opens up easily enough for the kisses, groans into the slide and bite as he settles between cas' legs. it's good, bordering on becoming familiar, right until cas rolls his hips for friction, for obvious need and dean moans quietly. the words drive the point home, that this is going beyond the usual hungry kisses, and dean-- he finds himself more than alright with that, wants this to go further, wants all of him, wants him right now.

dean's used to a simple routine that doesn't fit anything he and cas have between them. he's used to shoving, for clothes to come off just enough for the deed to be done, he's done for a quick, rough press-push-take and driving the point home, forcing the pleasure out for that single, mind-numbing moment. no words, no kisses, none of that.

yet here, he has so much more he almost doesn't know what to do about it. ]


Then this needs to come off.

[ this time his voice holds more humor, something quietly pleased. a hand pushes up at cas' shirt, exposing skin before latching down, fingers dragging greedily over his friend's torso. gentle, nice-- he's not sure how to go about that, so he does it how he knows; greedy and to the point. including when he bends down, bites at cas' mouth and forces entry. ]
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[personal profile] hardhearted 2014-04-10 12:50 am (UTC)(link)
[ dean sucks in another breath, this one sharper, sudden under all the kisses and touches. fire pools low in his stomach, harder and faster than he would have thought, setting every nerve in him into overdrive, and he just wants. cas' mouth at his ear gets another low sound, a harsh breath as he press into the ministration, silently asking for more.

he could take, demand, but...

but this is good, too. he can learn this, get used to it.

with cas' shirt off, it gives dean a good view of the skin he's seen a hundred times before, but never wanted. not like he does now. he wants to press his mouth to it, bite half-moon marks into it and mark it as his, wants to lick and taste it, breathe in the scent of him. yet, despite everything he wants, he pauses some to simply admire castiel's lean torso, letting a hand come to sculpt at the expanse of it, over his stomach and up his chest...

this, too, is something he hasn't done in so long.

the command gets dean to react quickly, has him tugging off his shirt in no time at all. his body is the same as ever, as he knows cas has seen him shirtless, and more, plenty of times before. even if he hadn't, the scarring from various missions, from close calls with croats and demons, from chasing after lucifer, mark his body every which way. he's not ashamed of them, finds each just another reminder of the mistakes he's made, of what he'd let sam become... and most vibrantly, still, lingers the once angel's hand print over his shoulder.

it almost aches now, just like the rest of him, as cas' fingers dip and explore just beneath his navel.

where his scars bear him no shame, how... into this he is, and how fast, does. somewhat. it doesn't really show, but he feels it burn brighter inside, scorches at him when he bites down a growl the moment cas' hand squeezes. ]


...Fuck

[ is that enough of an answer? or maybe... ]

Don't tease me.

[ this time the sound very much is a growl, one he bites into the side of cas' neck roughly, makes sure to leave a mark which will be fucking seen the next day. both hands skim over cas' torso now, blunt nails dragging down over the sides of him, to a sharply angled hip, over the back of him round down and past the waist of his pants, over cas' ass, to touch all of him. ]
runsaway: (so basically we're all crazy here)

Week 18, Day 5

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 01:50 am (UTC)(link)
CONTACT: sam.winchester@compass.net
MESSAGE: Hey. You holding together?
runsaway: (kind of wish we'd had this book earlier)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 02:05 am (UTC)(link)
Yeah. Sorry about that. I've been mostly at the library.
runsaway: (this won't be easy to say)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 02:10 am (UTC)(link)
A lot of the same, unfortunately. Just different stories about different Gods.
runsaway: ([dean] what i put up with is amazing)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 02:18 am (UTC)(link)
[ Great. ]

I'm sure he did.
runsaway: (Default)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 02:33 am (UTC)(link)
I don't want to meet the lurking terror.

[ Or anything, really. ]

They sound uncontrollable. People go crazy trying to understand them. A few were trying to suggest we contact them, but I don't think that would work out. At all.
runsaway: ([dean] something fishy is going on here)

1/2

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 02:55 am (UTC)(link)
I'm not sure what else to do myself, at the moment. I feel like I keep hitting a brick wall and by the look of things, that's going to be literal pretty soon.

[ The blockade... ]
runsaway: (you're not joking are you?)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 03:02 am (UTC)(link)
[ But... ]

Actually. One unrelated thing.
runsaway: ([dean] pouty face)

1/3

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 03:19 am (UTC)(link)
[ He has to ask. He knows he does. He hasn't had time to get off campus but...man...he's not planning on anything, but he knows he can't be caught unprepared like last time. Not after she's made her interest clear. ]

Well.
runsaway: (yeaaaah that's awkward)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 03:20 am (UTC)(link)
[ Okay, Sam. You can do this. This isn't that strange, right? Besides, Castiel would...probably be able to help him out without completely making Sam feel foolish.

It's not like he's thirteen. ]


Ok. So.
runsaway: (well that sucks)

[personal profile] runsaway 2014-04-10 03:22 am (UTC)(link)
[ C'mon Sam.

Just do it. ]


Do you have any condoms

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