[ For a second, the harsh thrum of tension runs straight down his back. It winds and curls around him, slamming into his gut as each of those words settle over him, and the pressure of Dean's mouth-- Dean's fingers, his lips. Castiel can't get it out of his head. ]
Don't.
[ It's so quiet, he's not even sure he's spoken it.
He doesn't want to think about Dean pushing him away, doesn't want to relive those days he'd had no one at all. Less someone and more nothing, not at all useful. So, he doesn't want Dean thinking about it either. He doesn't want either of them thinking about it. Because then he'll start to question it, wonder why this is good and where it's going to go when he's never thought about it before. He'd lived from moment to moment back home, but he considers the future here. Whatever that's supposed to mean slips away as Castiel turns his head ever so slightly, their noses bumping. ]
I need you to stay right here. [ So he's not alone, so there's someone who will help piece him back together when he falls. ] With me.
[ Since he's selfish and wants this just as much as he needs it too. He lips at the side of his mouth before giving into the urge, kissing him without pretense or surprise this time. It's just as nice as before, somehow better, and he sinks into it with his whole body. ]
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Don't.
[ It's so quiet, he's not even sure he's spoken it.
He doesn't want to think about Dean pushing him away, doesn't want to relive those days he'd had no one at all. Less someone and more nothing, not at all useful. So, he doesn't want Dean thinking about it either. He doesn't want either of them thinking about it. Because then he'll start to question it, wonder why this is good and where it's going to go when he's never thought about it before. He'd lived from moment to moment back home, but he considers the future here. Whatever that's supposed to mean slips away as Castiel turns his head ever so slightly, their noses bumping. ]
I need you to stay right here. [ So he's not alone, so there's someone who will help piece him back together when he falls. ] With me.
[ Since he's selfish and wants this just as much as he needs it too. He lips at the side of his mouth before giving into the urge, kissing him without pretense or surprise this time. It's just as nice as before, somehow better, and he sinks into it with his whole body. ]