The longer this goes on, the more time that passes, the easier it is to feel reality slipping from his grasp. This is just-- It's absurd and ridiculous, reminds him of all those times Dean has pushed him away, and maybe... Maybe he does deserve this. Maybe he'd still been naive enough to hope that things could be better if and when the other man came back. That they could work this out. Castiel has considered all the things he's wanted to tell him, but he can't seem to get his brain to connect with his mouth. ]
What the hell, Dean. [ What. The. Hell. ] Why?
[ His eyes flick over him, and he's hesitant, unable to let himself step forward and touch him just to make sure this isn't something he's drank or smoked up. He doesn't think so because even his fantasies don't make him hurt this much. Castiel feels betrayed.
He feels like putting a bullet in his damn foot. ]
Where are you going to go - back to the dorms? [ And he spits it out, upset that he hasn't seen him in weeks and the first thing they do is argue. ]
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The longer this goes on, the more time that passes, the easier it is to feel reality slipping from his grasp. This is just-- It's absurd and ridiculous, reminds him of all those times Dean has pushed him away, and maybe... Maybe he does deserve this. Maybe he'd still been naive enough to hope that things could be better if and when the other man came back. That they could work this out. Castiel has considered all the things he's wanted to tell him, but he can't seem to get his brain to connect with his mouth. ]
What the hell, Dean. [ What. The. Hell. ] Why?
[ His eyes flick over him, and he's hesitant, unable to let himself step forward and touch him just to make sure this isn't something he's drank or smoked up. He doesn't think so because even his fantasies don't make him hurt this much. Castiel feels betrayed.
He feels like putting a bullet in his damn foot. ]
Where are you going to go - back to the dorms? [ And he spits it out, upset that he hasn't seen him in weeks and the first thing they do is argue. ]