[ he isn't only choosing for cas, he's doing this for himself, too. and it's not like he wants distance between them, not since their relationship has changed... but dean can't be selfish anymore, he can't do that to cas.
or maybe all of this is selfish. dean can't let himself linger on it, just like he can't let himself linger on staying. it has him trying to break his wrist free from cas' grip as soon as it comes, pushing closer but only because he's moving past cas.
fuck the duffel bag, he needs to get out of here. right now. ]
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I'm making it anyway.
[ he isn't only choosing for cas, he's doing this for himself, too. and it's not like he wants distance between them, not since their relationship has changed... but dean can't be selfish anymore, he can't do that to cas.
or maybe all of this is selfish. dean can't let himself linger on it, just like he can't let himself linger on staying. it has him trying to break his wrist free from cas' grip as soon as it comes, pushing closer but only because he's moving past cas.
fuck the duffel bag, he needs to get out of here. right now. ]
We're done. I can't-- I'm not doing this anymore.