[ And Castiel had been right beside him the entire time. There might have been those wavering moments when he'd gotten too drunk or too stoned to really pay attention to half the things around him, but he'd never allowed it to compromise his judgement as far as missions went. He had given Dean everything, even walked right toward his death without hesitation to see this goal of theirs (his) come to fruition. Yet, here they are now, burdened with a reality neither of them had ever seen coming.
He had thought Sam to be Lucifer. He knows this.
Even if it is not within his power to right the mistake of ending Sam's life, he can be here and offer what he can. It's surprising Dean hasn't pushed him away, taking it as a sign, and Castiel's fingers tighten a fraction more, unwilling to remove himself in an effort to reach through that impenetrable wall. ]
I have heard they do. [ He would ask for his trust, but he supposes he still hasn't earned that after what had happened in the church. ] We should wait.
[ Meaning he's not going anywhere. Even if Dean gives the order, he's going to stay and sit this through as he has done every day for the past five years. He wants to say so many other things to him, that they will fix this, that Castiel won't leave him (he never would), but it's too much with the weight of Sam's death hanging over them both. He stays quiet. ]
action.
He had thought Sam to be Lucifer. He knows this.
Even if it is not within his power to right the mistake of ending Sam's life, he can be here and offer what he can. It's surprising Dean hasn't pushed him away, taking it as a sign, and Castiel's fingers tighten a fraction more, unwilling to remove himself in an effort to reach through that impenetrable wall. ]
I have heard they do. [ He would ask for his trust, but he supposes he still hasn't earned that after what had happened in the church. ] We should wait.
[ Meaning he's not going anywhere. Even if Dean gives the order, he's going to stay and sit this through as he has done every day for the past five years. He wants to say so many other things to him, that they will fix this, that Castiel won't leave him (he never would), but it's too much with the weight of Sam's death hanging over them both. He stays quiet. ]