[ but cas what if he wants to have this conversation right here!!!
the certainty in cas' voice is unexpected, a mirror of sam's words from before. he'd believed him, and wants to believe cas now but he can't keep going through this... betrayal that people seem to favor when it comes to him. he might deserve it in some part, but it leaves him tired and hopeless.
even the usual anger doesn't seem to save him this time.
he follows with the urging, eyes on the floor now as he steps inside. ]
You can't stop it. You're just...
[ you might have stood by him all this time, but you're just...you, cas. either way, dean looks ready to drop, the alcohol burning in his blood and dragging him down all the more, making every part of his grow heavier. he hasn't been this drunk in years, probably not since sam first said yes, when he died and dean lost him forever.
dean twists his arm just a little, hand wrapping around cas'. it's mostly for balance, to make their connection stronger, more firm, but also because... cas grounds him, gives him the proof he needs right now that this is real, at least. that he's there and despite all the bullshit, he won't leave. ]
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the certainty in cas' voice is unexpected, a mirror of sam's words from before. he'd believed him, and wants to believe cas now but he can't keep going through this... betrayal that people seem to favor when it comes to him. he might deserve it in some part, but it leaves him tired and hopeless.
even the usual anger doesn't seem to save him this time.
he follows with the urging, eyes on the floor now as he steps inside. ]
You can't stop it. You're just...
[ you might have stood by him all this time, but you're just...you, cas. either way, dean looks ready to drop, the alcohol burning in his blood and dragging him down all the more, making every part of his grow heavier. he hasn't been this drunk in years, probably not since sam first said yes, when he died and dean lost him forever.
dean twists his arm just a little, hand wrapping around cas'. it's mostly for balance, to make their connection stronger, more firm, but also because... cas grounds him, gives him the proof he needs right now that this is real, at least. that he's there and despite all the bullshit, he won't leave. ]
I hate this place.