[ once in cas' room and by the bed, dean sits down mostly because his legs are very much in the mood to give out by now. he sits with a grunt, eyes still on the floor until a beat later he's looking at cas again. or glancing, more like, as if he's afraid he'll find something there that he doesn't like-- like pity or concern, anger or disappointment. something. ]
Could've fooled me.
[ but no, cas is right. sam, despite the pain he's causing dean right now, makes things better too. as does cas. everything else though... he wants to shut them all out. even jo, no matter how glad he is to see her again. she's not his jo, she doesn't understand him or where he comes from.
dean's hand trails from cas', drops down onto the bed next to him. he sways there for a minute, sitting on the bed with slumped shoulders. ]
At least I have you.
[ it's quiet, mumbled and barely audible, almost as if he hadn't meant it to be said out loud. and maybe he doesn't even realize that he does indeed say it. he's still not looking at cas, instead has his eyes fixed on his hand over the bed, flexing his fingers over the fabric of his blanket.
it feels nice and soft now, even if it's not really that great. ]
ugh i hate everything about these two
Could've fooled me.
[ but no, cas is right. sam, despite the pain he's causing dean right now, makes things better too. as does cas. everything else though... he wants to shut them all out. even jo, no matter how glad he is to see her again. she's not his jo, she doesn't understand him or where he comes from.
dean's hand trails from cas', drops down onto the bed next to him. he sways there for a minute, sitting on the bed with slumped shoulders. ]
At least I have you.
[ it's quiet, mumbled and barely audible, almost as if he hadn't meant it to be said out loud. and maybe he doesn't even realize that he does indeed say it. he's still not looking at cas, instead has his eyes fixed on his hand over the bed, flexing his fingers over the fabric of his blanket.
it feels nice and soft now, even if it's not really that great. ]