[ He's not expecting an answer. He never expects anything, really, and even getting so much as that, the i don't know why is more than he'd ever hoped to get. Dean is so closed off, so hard to figure out when he's so fearless leader. But things are beginning to change, he supposes. They fight, they argue, but they speak. Castiel doesn't remember the last time he's touched pills either, and that has to count for something too. Right? All of this has to count for something.
He just isn't sure what.
Castiel sucks in a breath when Dean leans against him, clasping his fingers together and loosening them just as quick. Maybe he means to get a grip on his arm and ease him back upright, but it's not as if this has ever bothered him. Contact he generally likes anyway, now, and it's reminiscent of things before, when they could rely on each other and not think twice about it. Yet, Castiel has grown incredibly selfish through the years, and he can't stop himself from looking back or resting a hand on Dean's arm. His lips press thin before the words fall out. ]
Would it have changed things between us if you had?
[ Would they have still become like this? Ended up here? Would they be sitting here like this without an inch of space between them? Castiel doesn't blink, afraid he might miss the answer when it comes. ]
stop being difficult!!!
He just isn't sure what.
Castiel sucks in a breath when Dean leans against him, clasping his fingers together and loosening them just as quick. Maybe he means to get a grip on his arm and ease him back upright, but it's not as if this has ever bothered him. Contact he generally likes anyway, now, and it's reminiscent of things before, when they could rely on each other and not think twice about it. Yet, Castiel has grown incredibly selfish through the years, and he can't stop himself from looking back or resting a hand on Dean's arm. His lips press thin before the words fall out. ]
Would it have changed things between us if you had?
[ Would they have still become like this? Ended up here? Would they be sitting here like this without an inch of space between them? Castiel doesn't blink, afraid he might miss the answer when it comes. ]