[ Something in those words actually brings a smile to his face, short and small but a smile nonetheless. Castiel could counter with a pointless have you ever really understood me that would hang heavier between them than all the problems they have already, so he holds his tongue. Instead, he allows his hand to loosen, merely lying atop Dean's arm in the most casual touch he can muster. He never knows what lines there are to cross until they've been walked over or Dean is shoving him away. He doesn't want to ruin this.
Yet, he has to say something to ease him. Whatever it is, even if it's mindless-- But his words are always spoken with purpose when he means them, and now, more than anything, he wishes for Dean to see him. As Castiel, as Cas. His friend and whatever else, not the burnt out shell of an angel who had traded Heaven for him. ]
I wouldn't want you to change. [ He offers it softly, coaxing him like he knows he won't believe it. ] And I don't blame you for any of this either.
[ He never could. He'd be angry or annoyed or find his ideas incredibly stupid, but the intention of good is still there, buried beneath all that frustration and anger that still pours from Dean. Castiel would fix it if he could, but even that might be too much. Eventually, he looks away again and settles his gaze on the far wall. ]
BREATHES ON
Yet, he has to say something to ease him. Whatever it is, even if it's mindless-- But his words are always spoken with purpose when he means them, and now, more than anything, he wishes for Dean to see him. As Castiel, as Cas. His friend and whatever else, not the burnt out shell of an angel who had traded Heaven for him. ]
I wouldn't want you to change. [ He offers it softly, coaxing him like he knows he won't believe it. ] And I don't blame you for any of this either.
[ He never could. He'd be angry or annoyed or find his ideas incredibly stupid, but the intention of good is still there, buried beneath all that frustration and anger that still pours from Dean. Castiel would fix it if he could, but even that might be too much. Eventually, he looks away again and settles his gaze on the far wall. ]
You can stay here if you need to.