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indecadence) wrote2013-05-24 08:48 pm
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[ It's not that he doesn't care. It's just that there is more to this than searching for some sort of self-preservation, a desire that extends beyond the here and now. He's needed Dean since he first laid a hand on him, and even now, that need has yet to disappear. Through thick and thin, it refuses to go anywhere at all.
The hands on his face are warm, the breath he feels hot, and the words-- Castiel continues to squeeze his eyes shut, desperate for this. For anything that would keep them together. ]
You haven't lost me. You never will.
[ There's a shiver, sucking in air and sniffling just a little in the process. But it doesn't matter, tilting his head just enough to brush their lips together. It's the softest touch, barely there, and he lets his hands move up to cup the back of Dean's neck, leaning even harder against him. He needs Dean to believe him. He needs him so much, and the last several weeks have only proven how much.
Being alone had never been an option for him. He'd come into existence surrounded by many, and now... Now, he's down to one. He can't let him go. ]
If nothing else, trust me to keep that promise. I'm never going to leave you. [ He hasn't yet, and he won't. Castiel presses an even gentler kiss to the corner of Dean's mouth. ] Whatever it takes--
I'll always be with you. [ So stop fighting it. ]
The hands on his face are warm, the breath he feels hot, and the words-- Castiel continues to squeeze his eyes shut, desperate for this. For anything that would keep them together. ]
You haven't lost me. You never will.
[ There's a shiver, sucking in air and sniffling just a little in the process. But it doesn't matter, tilting his head just enough to brush their lips together. It's the softest touch, barely there, and he lets his hands move up to cup the back of Dean's neck, leaning even harder against him. He needs Dean to believe him. He needs him so much, and the last several weeks have only proven how much.
Being alone had never been an option for him. He'd come into existence surrounded by many, and now... Now, he's down to one. He can't let him go. ]
If nothing else, trust me to keep that promise. I'm never going to leave you. [ He hasn't yet, and he won't. Castiel presses an even gentler kiss to the corner of Dean's mouth. ] Whatever it takes--
I'll always be with you. [ So stop fighting it. ]
[ when a building tries to eat you, you don't stay put. that's how dean and cas lose their still very new home, as it forces them to grab whatever they can and to run, dean not intending on staying around to see what the slime and moving of the walls around them might actually mean. cas, is of course, grabbed along.
what greets them outside is finding out that theirs isn't the only building acting strange, but rather the entire campus is going off its tracks; people running around, desperate to find shelter, and that's exactly what dean demands they do as well, especially once the clouds above them turn a particularly nasty shade of dark, rumbling with promise if rain. ]
We need to find somewhere safe. Somewhere with an advantage.
[ one over the cultists, all of whom are also on the streets, looking every bit as agitated as dean feels. ]
Careful. [ no mistakes here. not now. ]
what greets them outside is finding out that theirs isn't the only building acting strange, but rather the entire campus is going off its tracks; people running around, desperate to find shelter, and that's exactly what dean demands they do as well, especially once the clouds above them turn a particularly nasty shade of dark, rumbling with promise if rain. ]
We need to find somewhere safe. Somewhere with an advantage.
[ one over the cultists, all of whom are also on the streets, looking every bit as agitated as dean feels. ]
Careful. [ no mistakes here. not now. ]
[ he wants to believe it more than anything, more than a promise from sam of the same thing, that he'll never leave him. his brother is-- he goes his own path, and dean's come to find that clinging to sam isn't easy, and that he can't do it without sacrificing his humanity over it. so maybe he can let that go, maybe....
but not cas. he needs someone, and with all the sacrifice and stubborn desire to stay by his side, cas has sealed his fate to him whether dean wanted it or not. castiel is his now, and all the words, the promises he offers dean.... dean wants to swallow them all, take them all for what they are, and to keep him.
cas is losing his chance to run away. ]
Don't make a promise like that.
[ don't make one you might not be able to keep. it's a desperate plea, breathed against cas' lips as he tries to hold himself still and from chasing that mouth. he hates this power cas has over him, the easy lull of his words that promise dean what he wants... yet past experiences easily tell how fickle such a promise can be, and dean's not sure if he can survive cas walking away from him if he allows himself to let the other man back in. ]
Just don't.
[ pressing in, dean forces his mouth on cas', rough and gentle at the same time-- demanding but almost afraid. he wants and hates all of this, yet the thought of walking away has detached itself, leaving dean to press himself closer against cas in return. ]
but not cas. he needs someone, and with all the sacrifice and stubborn desire to stay by his side, cas has sealed his fate to him whether dean wanted it or not. castiel is his now, and all the words, the promises he offers dean.... dean wants to swallow them all, take them all for what they are, and to keep him.
cas is losing his chance to run away. ]
Don't make a promise like that.
[ don't make one you might not be able to keep. it's a desperate plea, breathed against cas' lips as he tries to hold himself still and from chasing that mouth. he hates this power cas has over him, the easy lull of his words that promise dean what he wants... yet past experiences easily tell how fickle such a promise can be, and dean's not sure if he can survive cas walking away from him if he allows himself to let the other man back in. ]
Just don't.
[ pressing in, dean forces his mouth on cas', rough and gentle at the same time-- demanding but almost afraid. he wants and hates all of this, yet the thought of walking away has detached itself, leaving dean to press himself closer against cas in return. ]
[ It's good that they're always prepared no matter the circumstances, so escaping a building intent on keeping them inside to kill them hadn't been as difficult to manage as one might expect. There's a bag slung over his shoulder and another gripped tight in his hand, looking ready to move on and out without so much as a direct order. That particular tendency had never left either of them, it seems.
Outside, Castiel is doing his best to observe the layout, listening to Dean and relatively unsure which direction would be best to start in. All the buildings are out of the question; so that means there's really only one option. He frowns, gesturing with the slightest tilt of his head. ]
That way. We can't stay here, and the buildings are probably the same as the one we just left. [ Trying to eat them. ] What do you want to do?
[ Because hiding out in the jungle isn't exactly the best choice, but it's the only one they have. And the rain-- He glances up and feels a cold drop soak right through the sweaty tangle of his hair. That's going to make things worse. ]
Outside, Castiel is doing his best to observe the layout, listening to Dean and relatively unsure which direction would be best to start in. All the buildings are out of the question; so that means there's really only one option. He frowns, gesturing with the slightest tilt of his head. ]
That way. We can't stay here, and the buildings are probably the same as the one we just left. [ Trying to eat them. ] What do you want to do?
[ Because hiding out in the jungle isn't exactly the best choice, but it's the only one they have. And the rain-- He glances up and feels a cold drop soak right through the sweaty tangle of his hair. That's going to make things worse. ]
[ He sucks in a breath with those words, breathing the same air that Dean exhales, and it's a complicated intimacy that's between them now. He would ask him to stay for himself because he's greedy enough to want it, but he would also ask him to stay for them. For whatever it is they're moving toward. Something great, something terrifying.
Something that might inevitably kill them both.
Castiel takes the kiss without compliant, mouth open and a bit slack as he presses right back against him. His hands slip away, and he wraps his arms around Dean's shoulders like he's the only thing keeping him grounded. He doesn't know what the next several weeks will bring, if there would have been any point to fighting for Dean to stay with him, but worse than letting go is knowing he might have never tried at all. It's a failure too great to consider, and he draws back, pressing their noses together and eyes shut in an effort to collect his thoughts. ]
It's all I have left to give you.
[ Because he'd given him everything else already. His grace, his loyalty, his life, his love. It's all written out to Dean, has been far before any of this had happened between them, and he can't offer him anything else but a promise he really has no control over. It stings, and he burns with the knowledge of it. The helplessness he feels even as he stands toe-to-toe with the only one he has left is just-- it's too much. Castiel pushes his forehead against Dean's so hard it hurts. ]
Please. [ take it ] I need you.
[ And then he's kissing him with a terrible desperation that leaves him breathless and aching. ]
Something that might inevitably kill them both.
Castiel takes the kiss without compliant, mouth open and a bit slack as he presses right back against him. His hands slip away, and he wraps his arms around Dean's shoulders like he's the only thing keeping him grounded. He doesn't know what the next several weeks will bring, if there would have been any point to fighting for Dean to stay with him, but worse than letting go is knowing he might have never tried at all. It's a failure too great to consider, and he draws back, pressing their noses together and eyes shut in an effort to collect his thoughts. ]
It's all I have left to give you.
[ Because he'd given him everything else already. His grace, his loyalty, his life, his love. It's all written out to Dean, has been far before any of this had happened between them, and he can't offer him anything else but a promise he really has no control over. It stings, and he burns with the knowledge of it. The helplessness he feels even as he stands toe-to-toe with the only one he has left is just-- it's too much. Castiel pushes his forehead against Dean's so hard it hurts. ]
Please. [ take it ] I need you.
[ And then he's kissing him with a terrible desperation that leaves him breathless and aching. ]
[ dean grunts. ]
Like I said, we need somewhere safe. Or as safe as it's gonna get. Then-- I need to check on Sam. [ meaning he'll go drag him out of a house turned stomach if he has to, because dean can't just leave his brother behind. but that's a mission he doesn't want cas taking part in.
but first things first, they need to set up somewhere-- a meeting point and a safe zone, no matter how small. the jungle seems ideal, almost. dangerous as it might be. the rain might be a problem though, has him glancing up at the dark sky. ]
Firs though, I say we check if our dear Cultists have any extra tents.
Like I said, we need somewhere safe. Or as safe as it's gonna get. Then-- I need to check on Sam. [ meaning he'll go drag him out of a house turned stomach if he has to, because dean can't just leave his brother behind. but that's a mission he doesn't want cas taking part in.
but first things first, they need to set up somewhere-- a meeting point and a safe zone, no matter how small. the jungle seems ideal, almost. dangerous as it might be. the rain might be a problem though, has him glancing up at the dark sky. ]
Firs though, I say we check if our dear Cultists have any extra tents.
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