[ he wants to believe it more than anything, more than a promise from sam of the same thing, that he'll never leave him. his brother is-- he goes his own path, and dean's come to find that clinging to sam isn't easy, and that he can't do it without sacrificing his humanity over it. so maybe he can let that go, maybe....
but not cas. he needs someone, and with all the sacrifice and stubborn desire to stay by his side, cas has sealed his fate to him whether dean wanted it or not. castiel is his now, and all the words, the promises he offers dean.... dean wants to swallow them all, take them all for what they are, and to keep him.
cas is losing his chance to run away. ]
Don't make a promise like that.
[ don't make one you might not be able to keep. it's a desperate plea, breathed against cas' lips as he tries to hold himself still and from chasing that mouth. he hates this power cas has over him, the easy lull of his words that promise dean what he wants... yet past experiences easily tell how fickle such a promise can be, and dean's not sure if he can survive cas walking away from him if he allows himself to let the other man back in. ]
Just don't.
[ pressing in, dean forces his mouth on cas', rough and gentle at the same time-- demanding but almost afraid. he wants and hates all of this, yet the thought of walking away has detached itself, leaving dean to press himself closer against cas in return. ]
years later...
but not cas. he needs someone, and with all the sacrifice and stubborn desire to stay by his side, cas has sealed his fate to him whether dean wanted it or not. castiel is his now, and all the words, the promises he offers dean.... dean wants to swallow them all, take them all for what they are, and to keep him.
cas is losing his chance to run away. ]
Don't make a promise like that.
[ don't make one you might not be able to keep. it's a desperate plea, breathed against cas' lips as he tries to hold himself still and from chasing that mouth. he hates this power cas has over him, the easy lull of his words that promise dean what he wants... yet past experiences easily tell how fickle such a promise can be, and dean's not sure if he can survive cas walking away from him if he allows himself to let the other man back in. ]
Just don't.
[ pressing in, dean forces his mouth on cas', rough and gentle at the same time-- demanding but almost afraid. he wants and hates all of this, yet the thought of walking away has detached itself, leaving dean to press himself closer against cas in return. ]