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[indecadence]

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Comments

[indecadence]

I'm not useful to you. So no, Dean. I don't think you would have wanted to know.

Ask him when you see him. [ If you can find him. ]

[perkynipples]

[ Yeah, that shouldn't sting but it does, a little. ]

screw you. you're getting your deans confused, asshole.

[ i'm rude because i care ]

pass. if you get into trouble, tell me.

[indecadence]

I'm not confused. I know who it is I'm talking to.

[indecadence]

[ A moment passes, and he knows he shouldn't. But what is self-control. ]

Why? So you can try to fix it? Not everything is your responsibility anymore.

[perkynipples]

and what? i'm only allowed to give a shit about what happens if you're being useful?

and your dean sure as hell isn't doing anything but fucking things up if you haven't noticed.

[indecadence]

You've certainly proved that to be true on more than one occasion since you've been here. [ How many times has he talked to him only to yell at him for being stupid? ]

You, more than anyone, should know why he does what he does. But he isn't here to do that now. He's missing.

1/2

[perkynipples]

[ Holy shit he wants to strangle you, fuckface. ]

no offense, buddy, but it's not like you've been mr. helpful over there.

2/2

[perkynipples]

[ wait what. ]

he's missing? how long?

1/2

[indecadence]

I do what I can, and regardless of your own involvement, or lack thereof, it doesn't mean I haven't done anything for you.

[indecadence]

A day or so. He could be ignoring me, but I doubt it would continue on this long.

[perkynipples]

i didn't know defending an asshole was helpful. you know it doesn't count as being helpful toward me if you're just going with whatever he says. might be my name but it's not my ass you're kissing.

a day is "this long"?

[indecadence]

I don't listen to everything he says. And I hardly owe you that.

He wanted to let Michael in, and I tried to persuade him otherwise. That was over a week ago.

[perkynipples]

you should've picked up that habit before he got you killed, not after.

jesus. did he do it?

[indecadence]

Don't say that as if you understand my choices and why I made them. You don't. [ He's so aggravated, he nearly forgets to answer. But the next message he sends is curt nonetheless: ]

Ask Michael.

[perkynipples]

i don't understand, maybe you should explain them.

[indecadence]

Would it make a difference?

[perkynipples]

i'd like to have an idea about what the hell you're thinking half the time

[indecadence]

[ At least there's that. Castiel sits on it for a while, toying with the truth and its necessity here. Because he's Dean doesn't mean anything; it's memories that count, and he has so few with this one. Even before Zelien, they are skewed. ]

What choices would you make if you had nothing left to lose?

[perkynipples]

[ Yeah, that's not an easy question. ]

i've seen the choices i'd make

i wouldn't make the same ones.

[indecadence]

You can't be certain of that.

What I did - it wasn't out of obligation or necessity. I would like to think he would have done the same.

[ Then. Maybe. ]

[perkynipples]

i DIDN'T.

why the hell did you do it, then?

[indecadence]

Take a guess.

[ He's not going to make it easy, sorry. ]

[perkynipples]

because his suicidal tendencies are contagious? life's just too hard to live without his cheerful, winning personality?

1/2

[indecadence]

He's my friend.

[indecadence]

For the longest time, all we had was each other. Surely you understand that.